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🪻 Junko Flores 🪻
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This is Junko (Junkie and June are also accepted if we know each other).
I'm a very dissociated being, to the extent I can't safely say what am I, even on my own physical perception.
As a common rule, creature is the preferred term regardles of the scenario or how I feel. I can always relate to it, one way or another. Avoid referring to me as a person or human.
I'm a burnt out developer, currently on leave for mental health reasons. Your typical combo of autism and ADHD and a side of schizophrenia (brings paranoia and agoraphobia with it) and heavy dissociation. Despite all of this I am generally very friendly and affectionate with everyone.
I like linux and handling infra. During the transition of 2024 to 2025, working on lavenderfield is how I've kept myself busy and my sanity somewhat in check.
A lover of nature, an anarchist, a gardener, a witch. I defend and believe in the power of mutual aid and loving nature. I believe culture and knowledge should be open and free for everyone, along many other rights.
My love for nature ties into my spirituality. For the most part of my life I've been skeptical of anything spiritual and attached to science, which I still am, but living my spirituality through tarot, rituals, appreciation for nature, being thankful for the things that are important to me has and finding my own particular explanation for certain things in life, in my opinion, made me a better rounded being. I obviously know the logic and the facts of things, but life is already complicated enough as it is, there should be no shame in percieving things your own special way.
I blow out steam through music, mostly mixing. I don't think I'm particularly good at mixing sets yet, because honestly I really haven't gotten serious with it, but I try to record and share my sessions even with, what at least for me are, critical mistakes, but there is no shame and nothing to hide, the point of it all is sharing and appreciating music, maybe even coming up with something special in the process.
I'm also "learning" to play bass. Guitar will come after.
⚠ Content Warning ⚠
Uhhhhh- Drugs. Am I right? Either because my situation of disability, my will to live life and flow or just wanting to experience things, I really like trying out substances and being intoxicated. Given the schizophrenia, I completely avoid hallucinogens, no LSD, no shrooms.
I first started drinking alcohol when I was 14. And I got rather "late" to it, kids from my same age had started at age 12, even earlier. Let that sink in.
Never been too fond of alcohol during my teenage years, it has been more of an "acquired taste" along the years. I usually drink at night, in voice chat. Not daily, but lately been picking up a multiple-times-a-week type of pace.
At age 16 I started smoking tobacco, nothing special to say there, been chainsmoking since. Had a few periods of no smoking at all, the longest of them lasting about 6-8 months. But yeah, it's there, I don't really plan on trying to quit again. I always come back.
Weed at 18, this is where it gets spicy. Spent from my 18 to my 22 completely addicted and gone. Worked in the mornings, got stoned while not working. Minimum 3 joints a day. I could go into the fact that I completely wasted those good years on my life, but in reality, the thing to highlight here is the fact the daily use for so long was what triggered my heavy schizophrenia symptoms.
I still do the thing sometimes, but it only causes me paranoia, very rarely it gives me catharsis.
*Very positive experiences with MDMA which I will not speak about here*
Now, age 24. If you ever ask yourself "How does Junko function?". Two words. Elvanse and Xanax. Developing a bit of a nasty dependency to the latter. I can be thankful I have stockpiled a lot of it.
I literally have elaborated so much on the drug topic because I have used the collapsable box for the trigger warning that I thought I might as well get deep on it.
I'm a very dissociated being, to the extent I can't safely say what am I, even on my own physical perception.
"Sometimes a doll, sometimes a plant, sometimes slime, sometimes I can't feel my body at all."
As a common rule, creature is the preferred term regardles of the scenario or how I feel. I can always relate to it, one way or another. Avoid referring to me as a person or human.
I'm a burnt out developer, currently on leave for mental health reasons. Your typical combo of autism and ADHD and a side of schizophrenia (brings paranoia and agoraphobia with it) and heavy dissociation. Despite all of this I am generally very friendly and affectionate with everyone.
I like linux and handling infra. During the transition of 2024 to 2025, working on lavenderfield is how I've kept myself busy and my sanity somewhat in check.
A lover of nature, an anarchist, a gardener, a witch. I defend and believe in the power of mutual aid and loving nature. I believe culture and knowledge should be open and free for everyone, along many other rights.
My love for nature ties into my spirituality. For the most part of my life I've been skeptical of anything spiritual and attached to science, which I still am, but living my spirituality through tarot, rituals, appreciation for nature, being thankful for the things that are important to me has and finding my own particular explanation for certain things in life, in my opinion, made me a better rounded being. I obviously know the logic and the facts of things, but life is already complicated enough as it is, there should be no shame in percieving things your own special way.
I blow out steam through music, mostly mixing. I don't think I'm particularly good at mixing sets yet, because honestly I really haven't gotten serious with it, but I try to record and share my sessions even with, what at least for me are, critical mistakes, but there is no shame and nothing to hide, the point of it all is sharing and appreciating music, maybe even coming up with something special in the process.
I'm also "learning" to play bass. Guitar will come after.
⚠ Content Warning ⚠
Drugs, Addiction, Substance abuse
Uhhhhh- Drugs. Am I right? Either because my situation of disability, my will to live life and flow or just wanting to experience things, I really like trying out substances and being intoxicated. Given the schizophrenia, I completely avoid hallucinogens, no LSD, no shrooms.
I first started drinking alcohol when I was 14. And I got rather "late" to it, kids from my same age had started at age 12, even earlier. Let that sink in.
Never been too fond of alcohol during my teenage years, it has been more of an "acquired taste" along the years. I usually drink at night, in voice chat. Not daily, but lately been picking up a multiple-times-a-week type of pace.
At age 16 I started smoking tobacco, nothing special to say there, been chainsmoking since. Had a few periods of no smoking at all, the longest of them lasting about 6-8 months. But yeah, it's there, I don't really plan on trying to quit again. I always come back.
Weed at 18, this is where it gets spicy. Spent from my 18 to my 22 completely addicted and gone. Worked in the mornings, got stoned while not working. Minimum 3 joints a day. I could go into the fact that I completely wasted those good years on my life, but in reality, the thing to highlight here is the fact the daily use for so long was what triggered my heavy schizophrenia symptoms.
I still do the thing sometimes, but it only causes me paranoia, very rarely it gives me catharsis.
*Very positive experiences with MDMA which I will not speak about here*
Now, age 24. If you ever ask yourself "How does Junko function?". Two words. Elvanse and Xanax. Developing a bit of a nasty dependency to the latter. I can be thankful I have stockpiled a lot of it.
I literally have elaborated so much on the drug topic because I have used the collapsable box for the trigger warning that I thought I might as well get deep on it.
FAQ
Is your name Junko because of Junko Danganronpa?
First of all, I will hold inside of me, with all my strenth, the desire to tell you to kill yourself.
In short, no, it is not because of Junko Danganronpa. If you want an elaborated response, it wasn't because of any Junko in particular. I had quite the surprising amount of exposure to the name, but not enough to make it too common to my perception. When Junko as a headmate was identified, it instanly picked up that name.
In writing, I have mostly used 純子 (pure child) as the "official" kanji. In actuality, about a month ago (12/2024) I decided to change it to 純孤 (pure fox) because it felt more "mine", more representative of me. I don't think it's in any way, shape or form a recognized or given writing to any Junkos out there except of course Junko Touhou.
Fast round: What's your favorite X?
Is your name Junko because of Junko Danganronpa?
First of all, I will hold inside of me, with all my strenth, the desire to tell you to kill yourself.
In short, no, it is not because of Junko Danganronpa. If you want an elaborated response, it wasn't because of any Junko in particular. I had quite the surprising amount of exposure to the name, but not enough to make it too common to my perception. When Junko as a headmate was identified, it instanly picked up that name.
In writing, I have mostly used 純子 (pure child) as the "official" kanji. In actuality, about a month ago (12/2024) I decided to change it to 純孤 (pure fox) because it felt more "mine", more representative of me. I don't think it's in any way, shape or form a recognized or given writing to any Junkos out there except of course Junko Touhou.
Fast round: What's your favorite X?
• Movie --- Tarkovsky's Stalker.
• TV show --- Breaking Bad.
• Anime --- Let's all love Lain.
• Manga --- One Piece.
• Band --- Crystal Castles, Cults.
• Song --- Vietnam from Crystal Castles.
• Game --- Complicated, wouldn't know.
• Book --- Can't read fiction.
• Color --- #0f9a65.
• TV show --- Breaking Bad.
• Anime --- Let's all love Lain.
• Manga --- One Piece.
• Band --- Crystal Castles, Cults.
• Song --- Vietnam from Crystal Castles.
• Game --- Complicated, wouldn't know.
• Book --- Can't read fiction.
• Color --- #0f9a65.
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